Content Summary (YEAR 22)

Below is a summary of the HYYH Notes from the album inserts, Twitter, and the book, listed in chronological order of the events (for YEAR 22). If more than one Note exists for a specific date, they are listed together. I have attempted to distill the important plot events, so I recommend reading the full Notes in order to get all the details. The information below is based on my own translations of the Notes, which are available here. As with any translated material, I recommend reading multiple translations.

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This summary covers YEAR 22. Click here to read the summary for YEARS 9 to 21.

content warning: some sensitive subjects are covered, including abuse, suicide, and homicide.

YEAR 22

February 1 | Seokjin (MOTS: 7)

Seokjin returns to Korea from L.A. His father told him to return over the phone, and he didn’t ask why. He knows there must be a reason. He thinks about how neither Songju nor L.A. are his home.

February 25 | Hoseok (Persona)

Hoseok turns 19 and can no longer live in the orphanage, so he takes the money given to him by the government and money from his part-time job and buys a small rooftop room. Hoseok is living outside the orphanage for the first time in 12 years. He thinks about how the shabby home will be cold in the winter and boiling in the summer, but this little, worn-down home is his. 

March 2 | Hoseok (ANSWER), Hoseok (HYYH Book 1)

Hoseok talks about leaving the orphanage and getting a part-time job at a fast food place, which works for him because he likes being around people. He notes there isn’t much to laugh about in his life, so even if he has to force himself to smile for work, he can pretend that it’s real. There were tough days too, and it was easier to bear when he had friends. He reveals he hasn’t kept in contact with any of his friends: Seokjin transferred schools without telling anyone, Namjoon disappeared one day, Yoongi had been expelled and hadn’t contacted him since, Taehyung was off doing who knows what, and Jimin hadn’t contacted him since that day in the emergency room. He’s seen Jungkook a few times, in his uniform around the school, but he’s never come into the fast food shop, so they haven’t spoken either. 

In HYYH Book 1, there’s a few new details. Hoseok says he graduated from high school in February but that didn’t change much about his life. He notes that he saw Seokjin during summer vacation, but he left him alone since Seokjin seemed to be ignoring him. He says Taehyung started ditching school after Namjoon disappeared and has been in and out of the police station. He also notes that Jungkook must be getting into fights because he always has cuts and bruises on his face. He wonders if he did something wrong. Someone comes into the store, and he says it’s someone he knows. 

March 29 | Taehyung (ANSWER)

Taehyung gets caught while spraying graffiti on the gas station wall. The owner hits him and yells at him. Taehyung has been doing graffiti for a long time, having picked up a discarded spray can and spraying yellow on a gray wall. The contrast intrigued him, and he kept spraying different colors on the wall until he used up all the cans. He vented his feelings through the graffiti, but he thought it was ugly. He rubs at the wet paint, but it just changes form. In the present, he gets up off the floor and coughs up blood. Someone picks up a spray can next to him, and Taehyung looks up to see Namjoon. 

April 7 | Yoongi (HER)

Yoongi wanders around a construction site while drunk. He hears the familiar sound of a piano and walks near a fire that’s lit in a drum container. He nearly gets hit by a car, and then realizes he can’t hear the piano anymore. He hears someone’s fist hitting the piano keys and flashes back to a childhood nightmare. He runs towards the instrument store without realizing it. He feels like he’s forgetting something, and like he has repeated this moment many times. At the instrument shop with the broken window, he sees someone sitting at the piano. Even though it’s been years, he realizes it’s Jungkook, and he sees that Jungkook is crying. He doesn’t want to get involved. He doesn’t want to hurt him or get hurt himself. He goes towards him anyway and they meet for the first time since Yoongi was expelled from school. 

April 11 | Seokjin (HER), Seokjin (TEAR), Seokjin (ANSWER), Yoongi (ANSWER), Namjoon (HER), Namjoon (ANSWER), Jungkook (HER), Jungkook (ANSWER), Taehyung (Persona), Taehyung (HYYH Book 1 Epilogue), Seokjin (MOTS: 7), Seokjin (HYYH Book 2), Taehyung (HYYH Book 2), Namjoon (HYYH Book 2)

Seokjin is at the sea alone, and he remembers 2 years and 10 months ago (June Year 19) when they had all been there together. They didn’t have anything, but they were together. He leaves the sea and passes the school they attended together, driving further until he can see the light of the gas station Namjoon works at. 

In a separate note, Seokjin is driving around the school they previously attended and wonders if he can do anything to set everything right. He wonders if his failures mean that he can’t fix it and save everyone. He reaches the gas station Namjoon works at while thinking of all of his friends. In the HYYH Notes Book 1 version of this note, Seokjin pulls up to Namjoon and says “long time, no see.” 

In yet another separate note, Seokjin notes that when he opens his eyes, it’s April 11th again. It had been May 22nd, and he had just witnessed Taehyung climbing up the platform at the beach and jumping off. As he tries to make sense of what’s happening, he recalls that when Taehyung jumped, he felt the sensation of a mirror shattering, and then when he opened his eyes again, it was April 11th. 

In HYYH The Notes Book 1, Seokjin watches all of his friends (except Jimin) go into Namjoon’s container. He says they’ll be together again someday, but not this day. 

Yoongi walks with Jungkook to find the container Namjoon lives in along the train tracks. Hoseok had said Namjoon and Taehyung would be there. Yoongi doesn’t plan on going, but ends up going anyway. Jungkook, Yoongi, and Hoseok reunite at the container, and then Namjoon and Taehyung arrive. They’re late because Namjoon had to get Taehyung out of the police station, where he had been brought in for doing graffiti. Taehyung’s shirt is ripped, which he claims happened as he tried to get away from the police. Yoongi wonders where Seokjin and Jimin are, and notes that though it’s strange for him, he feels at home in this place he’s come to for the first time. In HYYH The Notes Book 1, he emphasizes a sense of anxiety and thinks about how these times will come to an end too, so what’s the point of feeling good? 

Namjoon searches for a spare t-shirt to give Taehyung. When Taehyung changes, they see the bruises on his back. 

In a separate note, Namjoon is at the gas station, reaching down to pick up money that people in an expensive car threw on the ground at him. They laugh at him, and he hesitates on how to respond, because he’s the staff member at the station. He sees Seokjin, who eventually approaches and picks up the money and hands it to him. He doesn’t come any closer than that and doesn’t say anything. 

Jungkook runs into thugs on the street and gets beat up on purpose. They beat him more when he laughs, and during the beating, Jungkook recalls his step-father and relatives ignoring him, his step-brother kicking him, and his mother being powerless to stop any of it. Later, he goes to the construction site and climbs on top of the railing. He almost loses his balance, and realizes if he dies, it’d all be over. He thinks no one would care if he died. 

In a separate note, Jungkook goes to the construction site and climbs on top of the railing, leaning over into the darkness and considering how it’d all end with just one step. Nothing comes to his mind, and he thinks of just ending it. However, his phone rings. His senses return to him and he takes out his phone to see it’s Yoongi calling. 

In Taehyung’s note, he draws a gaunt face on the wall with spray paint. He tries to draw the eyes but can’t figure out how to express them, even though they’re clear in his mind. He says it’s been two years since he’s seen Seokjin, and this is the first time he’s seen him in his dream. In the dream, he says Seokjin watches a bunch of horrendous scenes with no expression, and his eyes are cold. Taehyung doesn’t elaborate what he dreamt about. He drops the spray can, unable to draw the eyes, and hears police sirens in the distance. 

In the epilogue of HYYH The Notes Book 1, Taehyung wakes up at home and takes a walk to Namjoon’s container. He puts his hand on the doorknob but considers that Namjoon must be asleep and that the dream he had was just a nightmare. He recalls his nightmare where the area around Namjoon’s container was on fire. The door of Namjoon’s container had fallen off, and Taehyung saw bloodstains and fire inside. He saw Namjoon lying on the floor, dead. 

In the MOTS: 7 note, Seokjin wakes up after failing to save Namjoon from the burning container. He “reflects on the situation from September 30” and says that he’s been through countless loops since the first accident at the container. He is still frustrated by not understanding what the clue, the “map of the soul” is, and recalls that a voice told him “hints will come at a price.” He drives to Namjoon’s gas station, saying that if he stops the accident on September 30, the loop will end.

In the HYYH Book 2 note, Seokjin wakes up again on April 11 after failing to save Namjoon from the fire at the container village on September 30. He recalls having gone through countless time loops again, due to the fire that occurs at the container village. He doesn’t know why the loop begins again then, or how to stop the loop. He also says he doesn’t know anything about the “map of the soul” that is supposed to help him stop the loop. Seokjin remembers the first time he heard about the map of the soul was after he’d been trapped in the time loop a few times. A mysterious voice told him “Find the map of the soul. Then all this can end.” Seokjin asked for more information, but got none. Now, Seokjin approaches the gas station Namjoon works at again. As Seokjin gets closer to the gas station, he thinks about how his singular goal is to stop the accident on September 30. Seokjin says what he has learned is: “If something happens, someone gets hurt or left behind, there is nothing I can do. If I worry or fret about that, I won’t realize my goal. What is more important than saving everyone is that at least I have to come out this alive.”

In Taehyung’s HYYH Book 2 note, he is standing with Namjoon in an alley in Songju, asking Namjoon if he thinks it’s their choice to end up the way they have. Taehyung looks at the graffiti he drew earlier that morning, the one of Seokjin with empty eyes and a rough appearance. He recalls a nightmare he had the night before where tragedies happened to his high school friends and Seokjin watched it all. Namjoon told Taehyung that Seokjin was back today, and Taehyung recalls not having seen him for two years. Namjoon had told Taehyung that something seemed off about Seokjin, and Taehyung brought him to see the graffiti. Taehyung surmises that the Seokjin Namjoon saw looked a lot like the graffiti Taehyung drew. Taehyung comments on not being able to draw Seokjin’s pupils. Taehyung asks Namjoon for Seokjin’s number because he wants to ask him something. But Namjoon’s phone rings, and it’s Hoseok asking them where they are, as he, Yoongi, and Jungkook were waiting for them at Namjoon’s container. They leave the alley.

In Namjoon’s note (HYYH Book 2), he and Taehyung are walking towards the container house. Taehyung asks if Namjoon will tell the others about Seokjin, and Namjoon says he’ll just tell them he’s back from America. He thinks about how Seokjin looked “empty” when he came to the gas station. Namjoon then thinks back to Taehyung’s question that he didn’t finish, and he thinks Taehyung was going to ask about destiny. Namjoon contemplates the idea of destiny and how he never gave it much thought. He considers how he thought destiny was just one’s environment or personality, but when Taehyung asked him, he admits to himself that he didn’t want destiny to exist. “I wanted everything to be possible or to be decided by one’s choice,” he thinks. Namjoon opens the door to the container house and sees Hoseok, Yoongi, and Jungkook for the first time in two years.

April 20 | Hoseok (HYYH Book 2)

Hoseok is at work at Two Star Burger when a sudden downpour brings a crowd into the establishment. They receive alerts on their phones, likely for the sudden storm. Hoseok sees Jimin across the room, or a “student who looked like Jimin.” Hoseok calls out to him, but he doesn’t hear him. Hoseok heads towards him. He remembers how a week ago he had met up with some of his high school friends. When asked about Jimin, he recalled that he hasn’t seen Jimin since he was taken away to the hospital. The boy Hoseok was after turns around, but it’s just a student in a school uniform. Hoseok looks out the window and thinks about how he’s standing in a crowd but is alone.

April 21 | Taehyung (HYYH Book 2)

Taehyung is calling Seokjin, but he doesn’t pick up the phone. Taehyung has called him daily since he learned of his return. Taehyung begins walking, thinking that if he could talk to Seokjin, he could make some sense of the nightmare he’s been having. Taehyung arrives outside Seokjin’s house, after passing by Joongang Park. He sees into Seokjin’s house and watches as Seokjin appears behind a white curtain. Taehyung tries to call Seokjin again, but Seokjin doesn’t move in his house to answer the phone. When Seokjin moves away from the window, Taehyung can see a map on the wall inside the house. It’s a map of Songju, including the Joongang and Yeongsan areas. There are post-its on the map and some other marks. Taehyung can make out the school, Gyeongil Hospital, and Mokryeon Apartments, where Taehyung lives. He watches as Seokjin returns and marks another spot on the map, the right side of the Songju police station, which is scheduled to be demolished. Taehyung thinks about calling again but decides against it, figuring Seokjin doesn’t want to tell him about this.

April 25 | Jungkook (HYYH Book 2)

Taehyung asks Jungkook if he still goes up to high places. Jungkook is walking home from school, which he usually does alone. He’s startled and asks what Taehyung means. Taehyung tells him not to go to places like construction sites at night. Jungkook wonders how he knows about that, and thinks about how he does in fact go up to high places, and ride his bike quickly next to the Yangji stream, and how he starts fights with thugs. He acknowledges to himself that he’s been doing some dangerous things, but he can’t stop. Jungkook thinks about how he feels strange, meeting up with the guys again, because he’s the only one still in high school. He wonders if they think of him as a kid. He stays mostly quiet around them. Taehyung asks him where he’s going, and Jungkook responds that he’s going to Yoongi’s workroom. Taehyung asks him if Yoongi still clicks his lighter.

April 26 | Jimin (HYYH Book 2)

Jimin comes out of a group therapy session and thinks about how no one pays attention to time in this place because it’s meaningless. Jimin sees another patient at the hospital throwing a fit and thinks about how everyone there says the same thing: “I’m not crazy.” Jimin says eventually they all accept that they are crazy, because otherwise they wouldn’t be there. Jimin notes that they are all trapped there. As Jimin listens to the man scream, he bumps into someone. He hears the person (whom he refers to as “the idiot”) angrily say his name and then say “I got all messed up because of you.” The man then points to the off-limits ward, where the iron door is closing.

April 28 | Namjoon (ANSWER)

Namjoon admits he’s suspected Taehyung has something going on, since he’s frequently in the police station, has bruises on his body, and often has nightmares. He notes that he doesn’t ask what’s wrong and instead waits for Taehyung to tell him himself. Namjoon’s own conflict of whether or not he is qualified to listen to Taehyung’s worries comes out. He says that Taehyung has a nightmare that Yoongi died, Jungkook was in an accident, and Namjoon was in a fight. Taehyung asks Namjoon not to go anywhere, because he has such vivid dreams that they seem real. It’s a nightmare he’s had multiple times. 

In HYYH The Notes Book 1, the same note appears and Namjoon mentions how the boy in the village had reminded him of Taehyung, and now Taehyung reminds him of that boy. He says it looks like Taehyung is having a nightmare, so he stays and wakes him up. 

April 30 | Taehyung (Persona), Taehyung (HYYH Book 2)

Taehyung sees Seokjin sitting in the car and gets a chill because it’s the same gaunt face he saw in his dream. He sees Jungkook appear and then run away. It’s unclear if he runs away because he sees Seokjin or for another reason. Seokjin is visibly frustrated. He sees Seokjin enter a motel and look in Jungkook’s direction, and Taehyung notices that he drops something at the door. 

In his HYYH Book 2 note, Taehyung says that Yoongi didn’t come back to his workroom that day, and he and Jungkook couldn’t figure out why Yoongi was upset.

May 2 | Yoongi (ANSWER), Jungkook (TEAR), Yoongi (Persona), Seokjin (HYYH Book 1)

Yoongi is in a room that’s been set on fire, and he notes the agony of the heat. He reminisces on his relationship with his father, saying how different they were. He wonders if it could have been different, and what he started running from in the first place. He hears someone’s voice but doesn’t have the strength to respond. He realizes it’s Jungkook and thinks it’d be better to end everything in that room. All he remembers is that room and Jungkook’s face. 

Jungkook goes to the container Namjoon lives in and lies down. He says that Yoongi was standing on the bed with flames shooting up around him. Angry and emotional, he goes into the room, yelling about how they all promised to go to the sea together. But it’s a dream, and Jungkook wakes up to Namjoon shaking him, giving him medicine for a fever and headache. He tells Jungkook to sleep more and talk later. Jungkook wonders aloud if he’ll become an adult like Namjoon. 

In Yoongi’s second note, he’s at the hospital receiving treatment for his burns. He wonders about what would have happened if he had died that day. He likens his burn marks to fire, and the doctor calls it regeneration because his skin is healing. Yoongi wonders whose words are right. 

In HYYH The Notes Book 1, Seokjin is nervous about failing, even though he has attempted his task many times. He wonders how Yoongi sees the world and himself, and what his reasons are for committing suicide. Seokjin says that when this first started, he thought he could save everyone just by putting in effort and figuring out who he needs to save from what. But Yoongi changes the time and place that he attempts suicide, so Seokjin struggles to save him. A bird flies into Yoongi’s workroom and Seokjin watches from the outside. Yoongi is about to start the fire, but he stops. Seokjin reasons that he stopped himself because of the injured bird. He realizes that he needs to give Yoongi a reason to stop destroying himself and finally realizes that he can’t do it all alone, just like he was previously told. He believes Jungkook can save Yoongi, so he sets up the situation each time to make it so that Jungkook will go to Yoongi and stop him. It’s still a struggle, and one time Jungkook even gives up on Yoongi. Seokjin says at the moment the only one who knows he’s back is Namjoon, so he must leave clues for the others to help them save each other. He drops a bloodied tissue near the gate of the motel that Yoongi goes into, hoping Jungkook will follow his clue and go inside and save him. 

May 10 | Hoseok (Persona), Hoseok (HYYH Book 1)

Hoseok receives a call that the aunt who took care of him at the orphanage has contracted a disease. He goes to her home, but she doesn’t appear sick, so he leaves feeling betrayed, feeling like he’s losing yet another person. He ends up walking along a bridge and collapses due to a narcoleptic episode. (Note: The aunt here isn’t a biological relative, just a caretaker.) 

In HYYH The Notes Book 1, Hoseok says he collapses due to narcolepsy everywhere, whether at work or on the street. He can’t count to ten. When he blacks out, he always dreams of riding the bus with his mother. He says he has finally realized that his mother left him (and that he was 20 when he realized this). When his mother turns to look at him in his dreams, that’s when he wakes up and sees the lights on the hospital room ceiling. It’s the same this time, and he wakes up in the hospital with a mild concussion. 

May 11 | Jimin (HYYH Book 1), Hoseok (Smeraldo Books Twitter)

Jimin is in the surgery ward after having been in the psychiatric ward for a long time. He recalls how upset he was when he was first hospitalized at 8 years old, how he cried and pleaded with his mother to take him home. But she didn’t come. He was found unconscious at the Flower Arboretum and taken to the hospital, and his parents didn’t ask him anything. When he developed seizures, they also didn’t ask him anything. They would make Jimin transfer schools each time he got out of the hospital because family reputation mattered to them, and it was not acceptable to have a son with a mental illness. He recalls the day he had a seizure at the bus stop with Hoseok. He ended up here in the hospital and recalled that day at the arboretum when he was a kid. He had another seizure and was sedated. He says his life at the hospital is peaceful, and he was fine with it until he met Hoseok again. He wakes up and finds Hoseok in the patient bed next to his. He avoids Hoseok the entire day, and even sees the other guys from a distance when they come to see Hoseok, but he doesn’t go to them. Later that night he talks to Hoseok in their room and confesses that he’s been in the psychiatric ward and will soon have to return. He says he might be a dangerous patient. Hoseok just responds that he himself is narcoleptic, and he isn’t dangerous, so why would Jimin’s seizures be any different? 

Hoseok worries about losing someone close to him again and then tells someone that if they’re worried about him, they should try to stay alive.

May 12 | Hoseok (ANSWER), Yoongi (Smeraldo Books Twitter)

Hoseok thinks he sees his mother’s face in the hospital, so he runs after the person. He calls out to her, and the woman stops. Hoseok almost falls on the stairs, but Jimin grabs his arm to steady him. Hoseok realizes the woman, who is standing there with a young boy, is not his mother. Hoseok realizes that it’s been about 10 years since he’s seen his mother, so he wouldn’t even recognize her now. Hoseok reveals that Jimin had told him he’s been in the hospital since that time they parted in the emergency room, and Hoseok asks if he wants to leave. Jimin didn’t know what to do, and Hoseok wonders if they’re both trapped by their own memories. He tells Jimin they should leave. 

Yoongi says there must be a reason why someone would want to die, as well as a reason for wanting to live. He wonders what Jungkook’s reasons for wanting to die are, as well as his reasons for wanting to live.

May 15 | Jimin (HYYH Book 1), Jimin (ANSWER)

In HYYH The Notes Book 1, Jimin notes three days have passed since Hoseok was discharged. He says he watched him leave from afar, seeing the world beyond the door, but he couldn’t make himself go towards the door. Another patient rushes past Jimin and shoves him, making him fall to the ground. He realizes that he has now crossed the invisible line he couldn’t cross before. The other patient escapes outside while a nurse chases him, and Jimin takes another step. He knows there’s only three more steps to the door, but he can’t do it. He turns around and goes back to his room. He recalls the other day when someone called to him from the emergency exit, but he didn’t know who it was. He went there and saw Hoseok calling after a woman he thought was his mother. He prevents Hoseok’s fall and they go back to their room together. That’s when Hoseok says they should leave and that he’d come back for Jimin. Now, Jimin is set to go back to the psychiatric ward the next day. 

Jimin wakes up to Hoseok and the darkness of the hospital room. Hoseok tells him that the guys all came, with Namjoon being a lookout, Yoongi distracting the nurses, and Taehyung and Jungkook in place to meet them at the elevator. Jimin briefly thinks about how he wanted to get out of the hospital and laugh with his friends like they did before, but now he isn’t sure. He worries that Hoseok thinks of him like his parents and those who whisper about his mental illness do, that maybe Hoseok thinks it’s uncomfortable to be around Jimin. Hoseok urges him to hurry, and they look towards the door. 

Hoseok ends up pulling him out and they get on the elevator with Seokjin and Namjoon. On the first floor, they enter the lounge where Yoongi, Taehyung, and Jungkook are. A nurse comes in and asks what they’re doing. They agree to run on the signal, and when Hoseok tells Jimin to run, they all start running. Nurses are chasing them down the hallway, and Jimin starts to slow down, worried about whether he’s making the right choice. In the end, he keeps running and goes through the door. 

May 16 | Jimin (ANSWER), Hoseok (HYYH Book 1)

Hoseok and Jimin arrive at Hoseok’s house, which is one room on the roof of a building. From the building they can see the city, and Jimin notices the train station, the container where Namjoon lives, and the school they had all attended together. He also sees a big apartment complex, where his parents live. He thinks about how the hospital has probably contacted his parents about him running away, but he doesn’t have the courage to go home yet. Jimin notes that just thinking about how he will have to face his parents one day makes him feel like he’ll have a seizure, but he doesn’t want to go back to the hospital. 

Hoseok says he is his most honest self while at home, and he never collapses from narcolepsy there. He brought Jimin to his house since he didn’t want to go home, and now they’re looking out over the city. Hoseok confesses to Jimin that he doesn’t have narcolepsy. He considers his own lie is why he never asked his friends questions, because then he’d have to admit he had no mom. Hoseok says he didn’t do it on purpose and Jimin asks if he’s okay now. Hoseok responds that he doesn’t know but that they’ll figure it out going forward. 

May 19 | Jimin (TEAR)

Jimin resolves that he must stop lying about not remembering what happened at the Flower Arboretum, and that he should go back there in order to resolve his issues. He goes to the bus stop several times, but he can’t bring himself to go. This time, Yoongi appears at the bus stop too. Jimin asks why he’s there, and he brushes the question off, saying he’s bored. Jimin contemplates his fear of going back. The bus arrives, and Jimin impulsively turns to Yoongi to ask him if he will go with him to the arboretum. 

May 20 | Hoseok (TEAR), Seokjin (HYYH Book 1), Taehyung (TEAR)

Hoseok leaves the police station after retrieving Taehyung. He wonders how much Taehyung must be suffering, when Hoseok himself feels like the world is unfair to Taehyung. Hoseok saw the scars on Taehyung’s back when he met him at Namjoon’s container house. Hoseok reveals he has no memory of his father, and only remembers his mother vaguely up until age seven. He questions why wounds this deep are necessary and what they mean. Hoseok walks Taehyung home and watches as Taehyung walks down the corridor to his home. Now alone, Hoseok’s phone rings. 

Seokjin watches from a distance as Hoseok and Taehyung walk together. He waits for Hoseok to drop Taehyung off at his house and then calls him. He asks Hoseok to call Taehyung and ask him about going on a trip together to the sea. Hoseok is confused as says of course he’ll go. Seokjin insists that he find out from Taehyung himself and hangs up. He had called as soon as Taehyung went into the house, stating that it was the right time. Hoseok is confused when Seokjin hangs up but turns around and enters Taehyung’s house through the open door. 

Taehyung looks down at the blood on his hand as his older sister cries and Hoseok stands in the room. Taehyung’s father had left the room at some point after Taehyung attempted to stab him. Taehyung tells Hoseok he can leave, that he’s okay now. His hand is bandaged from where he broke an alcohol bottle on the floor, cutting himself instead of hurting his father. Taehyung wonders how to live as he looks down at Namjoon’s phone number, wanting to call him in this moment where he feels lost. 

May 22 | Jungkook (HYYH Book 1), Taehyung (HYYH Book 1), Seokjin (HYYH Book 1), Namjoon (TEAR), Taehyung (HER), Taehyung (ANSWER), Jimin (HYYH Book 1), Jungkook (TEAR, Twitter)

Jungkook wakes up and is at the beach with the others. They play around, having all met up again after getting Jimin out of the hospital. They recall the first time they went to the beach together, on June 12, years ago. Taehyung asks if the observatory had been there the last time they were there, and Jungkook responds that he doesn’t think it was. 

Taehyung recalls seeing all of this in his dream. He had seen them all together at the sea and himself up on the observatory. He remembers looking down at the others and then jumping off. Jungkook noticed Seokjin climbing up the observatory. The others wave at him as he looks like he’s taking a photo, but Taehyung just looks at him, remembering that everything was the same in the dream, except that he was up there instead. Taehyung notes that the wound on his hand hurts sometimes, like it does now, and he wonders if it’s because it’s punishment for all of his wrongdoings. 

Namjoon is on the phone with someone, talking about how someone (most likely his younger brother) is only about a year younger than him, so he should start to take some responsibility for himself. He’s at the sea, taking the call in the forest. He wonders if someone else with a larger existence could see where he’s going, why, and how it would turn out. He thinks about how it’s not that he doesn’t love his family, and wonders what the meaning of getting frustrated, struggling, and wanting to break away means. He sees Jungkook and recalls the time Jungkook said he hoped to become an adult like Namjoon. Namjoon ruefully thinks that just because someone is a bit older, that doesn’t mean they’re an adult, and reveals that he doesn’t feel like an adult. 

Taehyung overhears Namjoon’s phone conversation while passing the forest. He assumes Namjoon is talking about him and feels angry, alone, and scared. He wants to do something to act out and worries about his father’s blood running through him too. He wonders if violence is inherent and feels like something might break free from inside him. 

Seokjin thinks about how they finally got here, finally reunited after all the trials and errors. He feels uneasy because he has something to confess and hasn’t been able to do it yet. He says that after dinner, he tells the others he needs to say something, but only Taehyung is looking at him. Seokjin recalls how Taehyung had confronted him a few days ago and asked him about his dream. He asked him if he knew what it meant, and Seokjin had denied it. Seokjin doesn’t want to tell him the truth, that it’s not a dream and that he had in fact killed his father many times. Seokjin finally gets the attention of the others and starts to speak, but Taehyung cuts him off. He asks if Seokjin is talking about the time he ratted them out in high school, or how Yoongi got suspended because of that. Namjoon tries to stop Taehyung, but is unsuccessful. Seokjin apologizes to Yoongi and Taehyung begins to speak again. 

Taehyung asks Seokjin if there’s anything else he’s hiding, in front of the other guys. Namjoon tries to stop him again, but Taehyung shakes him off, still angry about the phone conversation he overheard. He understands Namjoon isn’t much older and isn’t his real brother, but he was still really hurt by his words. Seokjin apologizes and says they shouldn’t talk about it here, and Taehyung notes how it’s only Seokjin who apologizes and says something; Namjoon doesn’t. Taehyung accuses him of hiding something again. Namjoon tries to pull Taehyung outside, but Taehyung yells at him, causing Namjoon to stop. Taehyung thinks how maybe he wants Namjoon to keep scolding him, like he’s a real younger brother and someone too important to let go of. Because Namjoon doesn’t, Taehyung feels his support system crash. Taehyung says that there’s no point of being together, because they’ll all be alone in the end, and that’s when Seokjin hits him. 

Jimin gets ready to leave with Yoongi, Hoseok, and Jungkook. Jungkook walks ahead of the others and Jimin can either go home with Hoseok or go back to his parents’ house. In the end, he chooses to go confront his parents. 

Jungkook thinks he’s up in the air, but he’s on the ground and can’t feel anything. He can’t breathe and his surroundings are dim. He opens his eyes and thinks he sees a light, but then realizes it’s the moon. He notes it’s upside down, and he tries to breathe and move. In his semi-conscious state, he hears someone ask, “Even though living is more painful than dying, you still want to live?”

May 28 | Hoseok (Persona)

Hoseok says they haven’t contacted each other since coming back from the sea. He remembers a sandstorm blowing in as Seokjin and Taehyung stood on the platform, and when it was over, Seokjin comes down and gets in his car, leaving first. The rest of the guys had nowhere to stay and no way to get back without Seokjin, but they start heading back, disappointed their trip to the sea was ruined. 

May 29 | Jimin (Persona)

Jimin is sitting in GED classes after his mother complained that he can’t do anything without at least a high school diploma. He doesn’t want to study and doesn’t feel ready to do so. He worries that the other students will find out about his past and wonder why he couldn’t finish high school. 

May 30 | Seokjin (Persona)

Seokjin discusses how he was only given one hint: the map of the soul. He doesn’t have a clue what it is, and has been through the loop many times while trying to figure it out. He’s been to lots of bookstores and libraries and has searched on the internet too. He gets back into his car after stopping at another bookstore, but he doesn’t know where to go. 

May 31 | Hoseok (HER)

Hoseok avoids looking at the girl he’s known for over 10 years because he thinks he sees his mother’s resemblance in her. He recalls how they learned to dance together, failed together, and have been through life together. Hoseok leaves suddenly, and hears her call after him. When he hears his name in that voice, he recalls the faint memories of when he was seven. 

June 4 | Seokjin (Persona)

Seokjin talks about a horrendous painting that hangs in his father’s study. He used to be afraid of it, but later that fear dissipated and he was only afraid of the room beyond the main part of the study. He calls it the “interior room” and has only been inside once as a child. He’s not sure what’s in there, but he was never able to bring himself back to that room. He remembers there being lots of books and papers and feeling intimidated. 

June 8 | Yoongi (HER)

Yoongi notes how the red t-shirt with the word “DREAM” on it doesn’t fit him at all. He’s frustrated and goes to take out a cigarette, only to realize he doesn’t have a lighter because someone threw it away. That person had taken his lighter and given him the t-shirt and a lollipop instead. Yoongi hears a text come to his phone, and he reacts when he sees the name on the screen. He smiles at the message as if something good happened. 

June 12 | Namjoon (Persona)

Namjoon brings Taehyung to the rural village he lived in while he was away. On the bus ride there, he tells Taehyung of what happened to the “Taehyung” in that village (the boy he had that he referred to as “Taehyung”). He remembers the accident and how no one took responsibility and no one really mourned, including Namjoon himself. They keep walking past the scene of “Taehyung”’s accident and Namjoon asks Taehyung if he remembers the favor he asked for when they were back at the sea. He tells Taehyung they should try to resolve whatever it is now. 

June 13 | Seokjin (HER, Twitter), Jungkook (HYYH Book 1), Hoseok (HYYH Book 1), Taehyung (HYYH Book 1), Namjoon (HYYH Book 1), Yoongi (MOTS: 7), Jungkook (MOTS: 7)

Seokjin says that after they returned from their trip to the sea, they were all alone. They didn’t contact each other and only guessed at each other’s existence through various signs in the town. He recalls that night at the sea and his fight with Taehyung, how Taehyung had looked with fire in his eyes, how Namjoon had tried to stop him, how Seokjin himself had ended up punching Taehyung. Taehyung had run away after that, and everyone had left the lodging when Seokjin came back from looking for him. Seokjin believes that one day they will meet again, but for now, he doesn’t have the courage to face himself. Hoseok calls him and tells him that Jungkook was in a car accident that day. 

Jungkook’s in the hospital and Jimin and Hoseok are there to visit. They tell him he should have called. Jungkook says he’s fine, but really, he almost died. He was unconscious for ten days. He isn’t sure he can trust his memories, since it’s all really jumbled. 

Hoseok is at work at the burger joint when he hears from a high school student that Jungkook got into an accident and hadn’t been to school for twenty days. He opens their group chat, which has been unused since that day at the beach, and sends a message that Jungkook was badly hurt. At first, no one reads the message, and Hoseok wonders if they were even really friends. At the hospital, four of the guys still haven’t checked the message so he sends another telling them it’s disappointing. Hoseok goes back into Jungkook’s room where he and Jimin are talking about how Jimin joined a dance crew two weeks ago. Taehyung calls Hoseok then and sounds as if he’s been crying. 

Taehyung asks how Jungkook is, and Jungkook tells him over Hoseok’s phone that he’s okay. Taehyung heads for the hospital, but he hears Namjoon and Seokjin, and he’s not ready to face them. In the end, he doesn’t go into the room. He thinks about how he stopped having nightmares about Yoongi and Jungkook dying, but now he had dreams of Seokjin crying, blue flower petals, and blood.

Namjoon says he arrived at Jungkook’s hospital room in the middle of the night. He says Jungkook should have asked why the others fought that night, why they left, and why they didn’t come back. Namjoon says he’s the same because he didn’t tell Jungkook why he left without saying anything and he didn’t ask Seokjin what problem he had with Taehyung. He goes back to his container, which he hasn’t been back to since they went to the beach. He wonders if he’s avoiding Taehyung and thinks maybe he is because Taehyung is emotionally exhausting to confront. He thinks that if Taehyung and Seokjin hadn’t fought, if he himself had stayed with the others, or if anyone had gone with Jungkook, then he wouldn’t have gotten into an accident. 

While drunk, Yoongi recalls Jungkook telling him how even though he wanted to die, Yoongi’s music made him want to live.

Jungkook has a dream where he’s floating in the air and looking at himself in the hospital bed. He feels like he’s switching back and forth between the Jungkook in the air and the Jungkook in the bed. He dreams of the night of the accident. He wakes up disturbed, and the doctor tells him he’s recovering well. He asks the doctor who hit him.

June 15 | Yoongi, (HYYH Book 1), Yoongi (TEAR), Jungkook (HYYH Book 1), Namjoon (Persona)

Yoongi wakes up after a dream. He had been staying up all night to work on music. In the dream, he roamed around in fog following a whistling sound. He arrived at the garden of an apartment complex and found the half-burnt piano key. As he reached for it, his dream shifts and he’s standing in his workroom, watching himself and Jungkook play the piano. Then, he’s walking home with Hoseok from the beach with the piano key in his pocket. The dream is disjointed. Yoongi says it’s hard to work on music and he’s not used to working with a partner. He talks about the woman who is his music partner; he says she took his lighter and gave him a lollipop instead, nags him, and shows up whenever she wants, but her performance and critiques are impressive. They had practiced together the previous night and she told him they were meeting at the hospital the next morning. Yoongi had never agreed to it, but he was supposed to answer her call. He had previously turned off all notifications for all chat apps. Yoongi worked through the night. He checks his phone, and she hasn’t called yet. Then, Jimin calls him. He suddenly remembers another scene from his dream, where the house was on fire and his mom was saying “If I hadn’t had you… If you hadn’t been born…” Next, he’s on his way to the hospital. He sees Jungkook through a crack in the door. He recalls how Jimin had just told him how Jungkook almost died that night they came back from the beach. Yoongi is suddenly overwhelmed by images and sounds like the fire in the drum at the construction site, his mom’s unlit room, the piano sounds, and imagining Jungkook lying on the ground after his accident. He starts to spiral and think how Jungkook would have been fine if Yoongi had ignored him when he was at the music shop playing the piano, or if Yoongi had died in the fire. He’s overwhelmed with the sounds he hears and runs down the hallway. He leaves the hospital. 

Later, Yoongi is staggering outside, drunk. He recalls Jimin’s voice telling him something about Jungkook. Yoongi had run to the hospital after he heard, and saw Jungkook lying down. He’s unable to go into the room and recalls the sounds of a piano, fire, and a collapsing building. He hears someone say in his mind that it was all his fault. As he struggles with himself, he leaves, and cries for the first time in a long time. Outside, someone grabs him by the arm but he shoves them off and tells them to go. He thinks about how he doesn’t want to hurt anyone or be hurt by anyone. 

Jungkook wakes from a dream of the traffic accident. He gets up and uses his crutches for the first time. He sits on a bench and opens his sketchbook. The doctor comes over and tells him how it was a miracle he survived and recovered. A girl that Jungkook met yesterday comes over and asks him questions as he’s trying to draw what he saw in his dream. Then, he hears a familiar song that he thought he heard Yoongi play before. He goes over to the stage and sees a lighter hanging on the guitar with the initials Y.K. 

Namjoon talks about finding a young boy near his container home. He thought he was just lost at first, but he sees him repeatedly. The boy is clearly poor, and he’s always out late at night. When Namjoon comes home from the gas station, he sees the boy’s shadow outside his container. He wants to ignore him like always, because he can barely take care of himself, let alone someone else, but he decides not to. He lets the boy in and give him his last package of ramen. 

June 23 | Yoongi (Persona)

Yoongi gets a chatroom notification from Jimin, and all the other guys are in the chatroom except for Seokjin and Jungkook. Jimin later says he didn’t invite Jungkook because he’s still recovering. They’re talking about “the map of the soul” when Yoongi joins the conversation. Taehyung asks if any of them have heard about it, because Seokjin mentioned it. Namjoon says Seokjin had asked him about it too. But none of them know what it is. Seokjin says it will help him end everything that’s going on, but they don’t understand what he needs to end or why he’s acting so strangely. 

June 25 | Taehyung (HER)

Taehyung slows down, knowing someone is following him. He saw them at the convenience store and several other times as they tried to hide from him. Taehyung purposefully walks below a streetlight so he can see the shadow of the person following him, proving that someone is trailing him. He stops and says he’ll wait until the person comes up to him, indicating that he can see the shadow and knows they’re there. The person comes forward. 

June 27 | Seokjin (Smeraldo Books Twitter)

Seokjin says the smeraldo flowers were trampled under his feet and the time loop started again. *Note: This was tweeted by the Smeraldo Books Twitter account. It’s likely a fragment of a Note that will appear with the next round of Notes!

June 30 | Namjoon (HER)

Namjoon is in an elevator and sees a girl with a yellow rubber band tying her hair up. Their eyes meet in the mirror, but Namjoon averts his gaze. 

July 3 | Jimin (HYYH Book 1), Jimin (HER)

Jimin says Hoseok has been in a bad mood since they visited Jungkook. He believes Hoseok is the one who truly holds them all together, often being more positive than he feels. Jimin says Hoseok is the one who got him onto the dance crew at Just Dance after he got out of the hospital. He says Hoseok also brought in a new dance partner, a girl he had known from the orphanage. She’s the only person who could make him laugh when he was in a bad mood. Jimin thinks about how he had gone back to his parents’ house the night they left the beach. He told them he didn’t want to go back to the hospital. His mother asked where he had been, and when he answered with his friends, his father simply told him to go to bed and they’d think about what to do with him.

Jimin is exhausted after practicing choreography relentlessly. He watches a video of the choreography again and tries to get the movements right. He knows they plan to check the choreography tomorrow, but he wants to get it right. He notes that he wants to be considered an equal partner to Hoseok, rather than just receive playful compliments of being pretty good. 

July 4 | Jimin (TEAR), Hoseok (TEAR)

Jimin comes to his senses as he’s washing his arm vigorously. There’s blood, and he recalls what just happened in fragments. He had been dancing a choreography with an older girl from the dance club, and they crashed into each other. Jimin starts to bleed after falling to the ground, and something flashes in his memory about the time he spent at the arboretum when he was eight. Jimin runs after this flash of memory. He recalls that the girl had fallen too, but when he goes back, no one is in the practice room. He sees Hoseok running without an umbrella, and he starts to go too, taking an umbrella. But he stops. He thinks there’s nothing he can do, so he turns around and walks back. 

July 7 | Hoseok (HYYH Book 1)

Hoseok recalls carrying the girl to the hospital while she was unconscious. He slightly injured his ankle while carrying her, but he didn’t think much of it. Jimin was waiting for him at the dance studio when he returned to see how the girl was. Hoseok didn’t worry about his ankle and just put a pain relief patch on it, but it ended up swelling. He needed to be on it all day at work and during dance practice, so it didn’t heal well. While at the hospital, he sees a plane ticket after accidentally dropping the girl’s bag.

July 10 | Taehyung (HYYH Book 1), Taehyung (Smeraldo Books Twitter)

Taehyung is running through his neighborhood, evading the police. He recalls that he picked up the spray cans again because of one girl. He met her at the convenience store while she tried to steal food. He empathized with her, saying that he knows what it feels like when you don’t belong anywhere and are afraid you’re responsible for everything bad in your life. He says they saw each other sometimes after that, but they never did anything special. He showed her how to spray graffiti. He recalls that he hasn’t been in touch with Namjoon since he saw him at the hospital, but he did go by his container. The police catch up to Taehyung, and he’s in a dead-end street. He ends up surrendering, coming out with his hands up. 

Taehyung thinks about his dreams and says it’s as if they want something from him - like wanting him to fix the problems he dreams about. He realizes that he can’t do anything on his own.

July 13 | Namjoon (TEAR)

Namjoon is on a bus going from the library to the gas station, which he does daily. He wonders if he will ever break away. The girl with the yellow rubber band in her hair sits in front of him. They have been studying at the same library for about a month and have been taking the same bus. Namjoon notes he has a hair tie in his pocket. He knows the girl gets off three stops before him, and he wonders if she will go hand out flyers again and what sorts of things she’ll have to put up with. Her stop approaches, but she doesn’t get up. Namjoon thinks she might be asleep and wavers on whether or not he should wake her. He doesn’t, and he gets off at his own stop without waking her. He leaves the hair tie on her bag before he gets off the bus. 

July 14 | Seokjin (HYYH Book 1) 

Seokjin meets Namjoon for drinks after Namjoon’s shift at the gas station. Namjoon had called him, but he doesn’t say anything at first. He says nothing’s wrong, and later, after a few drinks, Seokjin asks Namjoon why he defended him when Taehyung called him out at the beach. Namjoon instead asks why Seokjin did what he did in high school. Seokjin blames the alcohol for why he confides his secrets, telling Namjoon that he’d never felt the warmth of a family and struggled with his mother’s death, his childhood in L.A. at his maternal grandparents’ house, and his father’s cold stare when he returned to Korea. Namjoon says that he’s heard Seokjin’s story now, but the others are still waiting to hear it. Seokjin leaves and wanders around a bit. He wonders if anyone would believe him if he told them the truth, including Namjoon. He sees graffiti and thinks about how he saw Taehyung the other day from afar, as he worked in the convenience store. He wonders how he can reconcile with Taehyung and notes that the future looks bleak. 

July 16 | Jungkook (HER), Hoseok (HYYH Book 1)

Jungkook stands at a window and sings along with a song. He talks about someone saying they liked the lyrics because they’re pretty, but he thinks they’re embarrassing. He closes his eyes and practices the song, noting a certain sensation in his heart. 

Hoseok ends up in the hospital to get a cast on his ankle, and Jungkook comes to see him. Jungkook mentions that he’s due for a check-up next week and he can go home if everything is well. Hoseok decides to throw him a party, like they did for Jimin. As Hoseok leaves, Jungkook asks him if Seokjin ever talks about “that night” and if he has ever said anything about seeing him. Hoseok isn’t sure what he’s talking about. Jungkook asks Hoseok if he thinks of himself as a good person, and Hoseok contemplates that as he leaves. 

July 17 | Taehyung (TEAR), Namjoon (Smeraldo Books Twitter)

Taehyung runs around to all of his usual hangouts looking for the girl. He can’t find her anywhere. He sees a piece of graffiti they did, which now has a large X mark on top. He doesn’t know it was her, but he believes it was. He recalls the times they’ve spent together, and how he told her to confide in him if she was having a hard time. He equates the X mark to saying that the memories were fake, nothing but lies. He wonders why, but doesn’t have an answer, alone again. 

Namjoon thinks about how sometimes doubt overtakes him and he wonders if he trusts Taehyung, but he says his answer is always yes.

July 18 | Namjoon (MOTS: 7), Jimin (MOTS: 7)

Namjoon and Taehyung go around to all the tall buildings in Songju. They don’t know what they’re looking for exactly, but they have two clues from Taehyung’s dream: canned coffee and a four-leafed clover. They arrive at an office that reads “National Assemblyman Kim Changjoon.” Namjoon recognizes that name as Seokjin’s father.

Jimin wanders around the convenience store near Songju Jeil Middle School. He remembers sneaking out of school to meet the other guys in the past. He sees graffiti that looks like Taehyung drew it, and he thinks he recognizes the face as Seokjin, because even though they don’t look alike, they have the same, soulless eyes. He says, “It was then that I knew. I knew who I should find.”

July 20 | Namjoon (ANSWER)

Namjoon sits in the library, carelessly flipping through a magazine as he notes the person sitting at the table isn’t the girl. He wonders why he’s sitting there. He thinks about high school and the storage classroom and wonders if he has grown up since that time. He decides he wants to start again, on everything he gave up on in the past. 

July 22 | Jungkook (Smeraldo Books Twitter)

Jungkook asks “Why did the hyungs lie to me?”

July 23 | Taehyung (MOTS: 7)

The guys are in the storage classroom and find names amongst the scribbles on the walls (it’s established that Taehyung, Jimin, Yoongi, and Namjoon are there). They see Seokjin’s father’s name written on the wall with the other names, and Jimin recognizes one name as “the guy from the mental hospital.” Yoongi recognizes another name as a guy who went missing (Choi Gyuho). The sentence “Everything started here” is written beneath the names.

July 24 | Seokjin (HYYH Book 1), Jimin (Persona), Jimin (HYYH Book 1), Jungkook (Persona), Taehyung (HYYH Book 1), Hoseok (MOTS: 7), Taehyung (MOTS: 7)

Seokjin goes into a conference room with his dad and some others. There’s a presentation pulled up titled “Masterplan for Redevelopment of Downtown Songju.” He knows Jungkook’s discharge party must have started, and he was going to call the others, but his dad began to speak. In the car on the way there, his dad asked him if he still hung out with his “so-called friends.” Seokjin realizes it’s not a real question, but rather an attempt to belittle them and suggest that Seokjin should cut ties. His dad tells him to learn as much as he can because he’ll be spending a lot of time there, and he’ll soon “grow into an adult worth his salt.” He tells him not to waste his time on nothing and says he speaks “from experience.” 

Jimin hangs around near Namjoon’s container home while waiting for the others to show up, as they planned to celebrate Jungkook’s discharge from the hospital. He makes a small congratulatory banner on a sheet of paper and hangs it up. Jimin wonders if he would have been able to leave the hospital if it hadn’t been for the others. He wonders if Seokjin is stuck somewhere too, and if the small hints they’ve found will be helpful. His thoughts are interrupted as Yoongi enters the container. 

In Jimin’s HYYH Book 1 note, he’s sitting in the container with Taehyung and Jungkook. He says Seokjin hadn’t showed up even though he said he would, Namjoon couldn’t come until after his shift, Hoseok had to leave for work, and no one could get a hold of Yoongi. Jimin says they’ve been this way since getting back from the sea. He thinks that maybe it’s inevitable, since they all have their own problems now. Jimin is focused on proving to his parents and himself that he’s okay. Jungkook gets up to leave, and Jimin goes towards the bus stop as Taehyung and Jungkook go in the opposite direction. 

In Jungkook’s note, he sees the small banner but notes the atmosphere isn’t really celebratory. Seokjin leaves the container, and Taehyung follows him out. The other guys follow too. Jungkook hangs back and notices it looks like Taehyung is saying something, but Seokjin isn’t listening. As Seokjin gets in the car to leave, Jungkook notices the traces of an accident on Seokjin’s bumper. He seems to wonder whether or not Seokjin was the cause of his accident. He sits down inside and notes that the other guys are all outside discussing something he isn’t aware of. 

Taehyung rushes up to his house where there are police cars parked outside. His sister says it’s not bad, no one was hurt. The cops check everything out and then leave. Taehyung thinks about how he dreamed about killing his dad a lot, and how he almost stabbed him once in reality. He says from then, he started to sympathize with his dad, even though he didn’t want to. One of the cops told him that they should thank the lady who called the cops, because she must be worried about them. Taehyung asks his sister if she keeps in touch with their mother. She says she doesn’t know an address or phone number; she only knows the general area she lives in. Taehyung says he wants to ask her why she left and why she appeared again. Taehyung starts walking even though it’s midnight. He notices Jungkook following him and tells him to go away, but Jungkook keeps following him. Taehyung stops on an overpass and Jungkook tells him they’ve been walking for an hour. He asks Taehyung where they’re going and Taehyung responds he needs to tell his mother something. Taehyung begins to wonder if he’s really going to do this, since he doesn’t know where she lives and his rage has now subsided. When they reach a more populated area, they sit outside a convenience store with ramen. Taehyung goes inside to buy drinks and comes back to Jungkook staring at a man in a khaki overcoat who is eating Taehyung’s noodles. Taehyung is surprised and also scared. The man has dirty gray hair and a scraggly beard. A troublemaker comes out of the shop and shoves the man while another trips him. This causes him to push the table, knocking over Jungkook’s ramen and splashing him with the broth. Taehyung shouts at the men that they should apologize for making the mess. They sneer at him and he lunges at them. They fight, and Jungkook steps in to stop it, but he gets pulled in too. When they hear sirens, they all scatter. Jungkook follows Taehyung, and a passing car’s mirror brushes up against Jungkook. He sinks to the ground. Taehyung says they should go back, especially since Jungkook’s leg appears to be hurt. He helps him walk somewhere to watch the sun rise as they wait for the buses to start running. While they wait, Taehyung tells Jungkook that he followed his mother the night she left them. His father had beaten his mother, his sister, and Taehyung really badly. That night, she left and Taehyung followed her for a long time. Taehyung admits he doesn’t know why he came this far this time. Jungkook tells him he’s sorry, and Taehyung fusses that he has nothing to be sorry for. Taehyung says he is the one who should be sorry for making him come all this way. He tells Jungkook he’s a good person and it’s not his fault. They get on the bus and head home. Taehyung thinks about how his mother had stopped walking and stood still, so he could have caught up to her if he wanted. He could have cried or thrown a tantrum, but instead, he just turned around and went home alone. Jungkook points out the man from before, and they see him walking alone. 

Hoseok enters the container and bursts into conversation, asking Seokjin to talk to his father. The redevelopment his father’s company planned would get rid of the orphanage Hoseok grew up in. Everyone is surprised, but Seokjin remains unphased. Seokjin tells him there is nothing he can do. Hoseok feels betrayed and thinks about how he considered Seokjin a friend, but maybe they really weren’t. In the end, he’s angry at himself for not being able to do anything and for being a “meaningless” existence.

Taehyung sits on a playground swing near an apartment building. He watches as a woman comes out to smoke some cigarettes and wonders if she can see him. He watches her go back inside, and then counts the door numbers, ending on the one the woman—his mother—went through.

July 25 | Hoseok (HYYH Book 1), Yoongi (HYYH Book 1)

Hoseok runs into Yoongi as he leaves the hospital. Hoseok had been scolded by the doctor, who told him he may hurt his ankle permanently if he doesn’t take better care of it. Hoseok sees Yoongi drunk and staggering at a crosswalk. He says Yoongi doesn’t recognize him as he passes. Hoseok remembers how he went to Yoongi’s workroom two days after he visited Jungkook in the hospital because he couldn’t get a hold of Yoongi. He knocked and kicked the door, but no one answered. Hoseok talks about how he’s known Yoongi since middle school, so he understands what he went through with his mother’s death. Hoseok had tried to be a good friend to him, but now he realizes that Yoongi doesn’t care about any of them, not even Jungkook, because he didn’t show up at the hospital. Hoseok looks back at Yoongi and sees him lying on the ground in front of a vendor’s cart. He goes over to yell at Yoongi, asking him when he’s going to stop behaving like this, and whether he thinks he’s the only one hurting. He asks him why he didn’t go to see Jungkook. After he finishes his rant, he tells him “It’s time to stop running away. If you’re going to run away again, don’t ever come back.” He walks off, though he thinks he hears Yoongi call out to him. Hoseok decides not to blame himself for things that go wrong any longer; he resolves not to live like that anymore. 

Yoongi wakes up in the middle of the night somewhere outside where it’s raining. He recalls what Hoseok told him about never coming back if he’s going to run away again. He thinks about how he doesn’t remember what happened after leaving the hospital, just that he was staggering around for who knows how long. Then, he saw Hoseok, and he thought maybe Hoseok could help him understand his own confusion and fear, even though he couldn’t understand it himself. He says that instead, Hoseok pretended not to see him and looked away. Yoongi recalls Hoseok asking him if he knew what he meant to Jungkook, and Yoongi says of course he does. He reasons that may be why he couldn’t go in to see Jungkook, because he’s worried he’d hurt him, since everyone close to him gets hurt. Yoongi looks at the mountain trail before him and decides to go deeper into the forest. Due to the cold and fatigue, Yoongi thinks he might be destined to die on that mountain trail. He contemplates how it may be for the better, since he had hurt others and ignored them. He thinks about death a lot. Then, he hears a piano melody. He says it’s the melody he was working on and that it was missing something. He tried to walk closer to it, still wondering what difference it would make if he could finish that piece. After walking around for hours, Yoongi stops and says the melody combines in his head with the composition he had been working on. He says it’s a combination of many emotions. He recalls playing the melody for Jungkook, who told him it was nice. He also recalls other various memories and says that his piano was always beside him during happy moments. Even though the happiness always went away, those memories were true. Yoongi decides that he wants to complete the piece, mainly just because he wanted to express his emotions, pain, and fear in the music. He realizes he didn’t wander deep into the woods and is now back where he started. 

July 26 | Jungkook (TEAR), Jungkook (ANSWER), Jungkook (Persona)

Jungkook picks some flowers at the hospital and knocks on the door to one of the rooms. However, no one is inside, and the room is dark and cold. He recalls spending time with the girl at the hospital and laments that he has no one to give the flowers to.  

Jungkook leaves the hospital and recalls how he and the girl used to sit and talk for hours. He doesn’t know whether she was moved or discharged, and he couldn’t get any information from the nurses. As he walks, he sees their old school and realizes that most of the stories he told her revolved around the other guys. The others had become his friends, family, and teachers, and he feels like his existence is only due to his connections with them. He notes how he had started to think at some point that maybe a day would come when they wouldn’t be by his side, and he wouldn’t know why. He recalls the night of the car accident and the moon hanging in the sky, which he notes is a moment that comes repeatedly to mind.

In the Persona note, Jungkook is still walking away from the hospital and ends up at the bus stop. He didn’t plan to go to the scene of his accident, but he felt like he needed to. He wonders whether or not he can trust the other guys. He lies down on the road and remembers the accident. He wonders again, if he can’t trust the other guys, then who can he trust? 

July 28 | Jimin (HYYH Book 1), Jimin (ANSWER), Yoongi (HYYH Book 1)

Jimin goes looking for Hoseok because it’s been four days since he came to dance practice. He checks the restaurant, but the workers say he’s on sick leave for about three weeks. Jimin rushes to Hoseok’s house, but he’s not there, so he sends a message to the group chat. Hoseok doesn’t respond. 

Jimin is in the practice room alone and it’s after midnight. He notes that he prefers this so he can use the room alone. He thinks about how he believed the weak version of himself that he created in his head was the real him, but when he dances, he’s not weak or small. He feels like he only came to like himself after he started dancing, and that he had stories to tell through his dance. 

Yoongi suffers from chills and sickness for two days after returning from the mountain trail. He doesn’t remember much. He goes to get an IV and tries to eat, but can’t. He sees Jimin’s message to Hoseok in the chat and notes that no one responds. Yoongi recalls how Hoseok had yelled at him the other day and says that it’s not the first time Hoseok got angry at him. He feels that he let him down, and he says that even though Hoseok would get angry at them, he never went silent. Yoongi says Hoseok always made it so he could come back when he went astray, but this time it seemed like he’d never do so again. 

July 29 | Yoongi (ANSWER)

Yoongi thinks about how he threw away his mother’s burnt piano key, the only thing he took from the fire, and about how he was never going to touch the piano again. When he threw the key away, he tried to retrieve it the next morning, but he couldn’t find it. He had since given up on music countless times, but knows that he’ll always come back to it. He thinks about how he wants to play the piano now, complete the melody that was meant for piano and guitar, even though he has no one to play it with now. He doesn’t want to run away and keep pretending to be strong. 

July 31 | Hoseok (MOTS: 7)

Hoseok goes to Hagok, where a new Two Star Burger will be opened. He acts unlike himself in this city, mainly by being rude and doing as he pleases. He bumps into someone on the street and realizes it’s someone he knows.

August 2 | Yoongi (MOTS: 7)

Yoongi sends a music file to Seokjin. While looking at sheet music, he saw “We can smile if we’re together” written in the margins. He says it isn’t his handwriting and that it may be Seokjin’s. He remembers how they walked across the schoolyard together and were awkward with each other, and he asked Seokjin when was the last time he genuinely smiled. Seokjin didn’t answer him. He cleans up the music he wrote nearly two years ago, finally attaching the name “We can smile if we’re together” to it before sending it.

August 3 | Seokjin (ANSWER, Twitter, MOTS: 7), Jungkook (MOTS: 7)

Seokjin goes into the storage classroom. He recalls memories from high school and wants to leave. Taehyung sees his change of expression and urges him to try a little more, to try to remember what happened in this place. Seokjin is frustrated because he’s been running around all day in the heat, and he thinks that memories are useless stories, and the only memories he has are bad ones. They fight briefly, and in the scuffle, Seokjin’s shoulder hits a wall and he falls to the floor. The wall collapsed, and there was a space beyond the wall with a single cabinet in the middle. Namjoon opens the cabinet and takes out the notebook inside. When he opens it, Seokjin sees his father’s name written on it and snatches it. He turns through the pages and realizes it’s an account of his father’s school days at that school. He sees that his father encountered the same things he did, and tried desperately to fix it. Seokjin says the journal is a record of his father’s failures. His father turned away in the end and abandoned his friends. Time passes and Seokjin notices everyone else has fallen asleep on the floor. He recalls seeing his father’s name written in the room with the sentence “everything started here.” He notices faded writings in the book, things his father forgot and didn’t want to remember. Seokjin looks at his friends as they sleep and thinks that maybe they had to come back here, because it all started there for them. He thinks it isn’t a coincidence, that this is the place he had to come to. He says through his mistakes, he discovered the meaning of the agony he endured, and now he could take steps to find the “map of his soul.” 

In the MOTS: 7 note, Seokjin says it looks like the scenes from the photos on the ground are playing like movies in the air. He says that something blocking his mind seemed to collapse, and the memories took over—all types of memories, both sad and happy. He asks himself how he could have forgotten all of these memories, and then he notices something in his pocket is emitting light.

Jungkook plays a shooter video game and violently mows down all the enemies. He thinks about the other guys and how these characters somehow resemble them. He shoots the enemies without second thought, and when he shoots one that comes out of a container near a train track—which looks like the container village in Songju—he looks down at the character, thinking it looks like Namjoon. As he does this, he’s shot in the shoulder by an enemy character, and when he turns to look at them, it looks like Seokjin. His anger boils over.

August 7 | Namjoon (HYYH Book 1) 

Namjoon goes back to his container home and turns the light on. He pulls down a flyer that says there will be redevelopment. He notes that they always say that, but then the redevelopment never happens. After he visited Jungkook in the hospital, he’s been coming back to the container every night instead of staying in the small room at the gas station. He says no one else had come to the container, and that everyone must part ways at some point. He wonders if it was just their time to part. But regardless, Namjoon wants to keep the light on in case any of the other guys still want there to be an “us,”; they’ll know they can come there. 

August 11 | Taehyung (HYYH Book 1), Taehyung (ANSWER) 

In the HYYH Book 1 note, Taehyung comes out of the convenience store after his shift and sees the wall where the girl drew her first graffiti. He says he hasn’t seen her since he gave himself up to the police when they were both in the alleyway. He recalls the day he went to find his mother and how it felt like he was giving up on something he shouldn’t give up on. Taehyung notices writing scratched under the X that reads “It’s not your fault.” Taehyung believes it’s the girl’s writing, and that it means not to blame himself, because he’s not the reason she left, or the reason that bad things have happened. He keeps repeating that phrase to himself. He arrives in front of his house and hears his father’s heavy breathing and alcohol bottles moving around. Repeating the phrase to himself again, he goes inside.

In the ANSWER note, Taehyung sees the X drawn on the graffiti and the sentence “It’s not your fault” written under it. He thinks it’s the girl. He heads home and hears his sister scream from outside the door. He enters and stops his father, surprising his him. His father hits him multiple times, but Taehyung doesn’t let go. Though he was afraid and in pain, he wanted to change things. He decides he’s different from his father and that he’ll protect his family. 

August 12 | Hoseok (HYYH Book 1), Jimin (MOTS: 7)

Hoseok arrives back in Songju. He thinks about how he left Songju three weeks ago because he couldn’t work or dance. At that time, he had checked his phone and saw no messages from the other guys. He decided he didn’t want to contact them first, because he always contacted them first. He assumes Yoongi won’t even remember what he said to him. He doesn’t regret it because he believes Yoongi needs to stop pitying himself. On a whim, he packs a bag and takes a train out of Songju. He ends up in a larger city and gets a room at a guesthouse. He wanders around the first two days, and on the third day he ends up at a place where dancers are rehearsing. He watches a man dance and feels many emotions from his performance. A staff member asks him to leave because outsiders aren’t allowed in rehearsals, so he goes back to the guesthouse and thinks about how different a live performance is from a YouTube video. He receives Jimin’s message. He decides he doesn’t want to respond and notes that people read the message, but no one else sent a message either, so the group chat became quiet. Hoseok watches the rehearsal the next day secretly, and then he comes back for the performance the next day. He notes that the man he saw at rehearsal didn’t perform. Later, Hoseok helps the staff out as they move stage equipment onto the train. The staff member recognizes him and sits next to him, revealing that the man Hoseok saw is their artistic director. The director used to be a dancer, but he was injured and struggled a lot because of it. He couldn’t perform on stage, but he came back as a choreographer and director. Hoseok ends up tagging along with the group when his bag is mistakenly taken with their luggage. He ends up going to three other cities with them. Eventually, he gets to talk to the director, who finds out Hoseok is also a dancer. Hoseok recounts how he got into dancing when he was twelve and his friends dragged him up on stage. Hoseok thinks about how dancing has given him the moments where he could be his true self and be happy and free. The dancer tells him that you have to hit your lowest low before you can find your driving force, and once you find that, hold on to it and don’t let it go. Hoseok thinks a lot about those words. The team invites Hoseok to join their staff, and he thinks about it, noting that he feels like he belongs, and maybe he could even audition to join as a dancer at some point. But in the end, he turns them down and says he has to go back to Songju to get his cast off. He considers that he hasn’t hit his own psychological low point yet, but maybe Yoongi had the day that Hoseok turned away from him. He thinks about how he abandoned him when he was suffering. He sends Yoongi a private message to ask if he’s okay. Yoongi responds with a music file. Hoseok listens to it and says how its mix of emotions is beautiful and definitely resembles Yoongi. He asks the title, and Yoongi asks when he’s coming back. Hoseok returns to Songju and sends a message to the group chat, asking them how they are and telling them he’s back. He says his ankle isn’t the only thing that healed. 

Jimin thinks about holding his younger self, telling himself to hang on, because he’ll meet good friends and will become a better person. He opens his eyes, wondering how much time passed. In the distance, he sees the Flower Arboretum and notes there is no trace of rain.

August 13 | Hoseok (HYYH Book 1), Hoseok (ANSWER)

Hoseok returns to the dance studio and watches the others dance, hoping he can dance again someday. The girl sits next to him and asks where he had been. He asks her if he’s told her about his mom, even though he knows he has many times. She listens anyway and Hoseok says his mom must be living well somewhere, so he can be okay never seeing her again as long as they are both happy. He tells her he thought she looked like his mom, but she doesn’t. She’s confused, but he just asks her when she’s leaving the country, then corrects himself to congratulate her. She apologizes for not telling him, and he says they should meet again someday as famous dancers. 

Hoseok watches Jimin and the girl practice choreography that he himself had danced not long ago. He reveals that he hurt his ankle and wouldn’t be able to dance for a while. He mentions that when he dances with Jimin, he’s prone to picking out all the small mistakes. But when he watches as part of the audience, like he is now, he can see the bigger picture of Jimin’s dance. He acknowledges that they’re different but Jimin shines too. Hoseok remembers that the girl will soon leave to go abroad. He wonders why he thought she looked like his mom, when she doesn’t, and he doesn’t remember his mom’s face. 

August 15 | Seokjin (HYYH Book 1), Seokjin (HER) 

Seokjin says he sees the girl for the first time at the railroad crossing the day he saw Jungkook in the hospital. He notes that Jungkook had been tense around him for some reason. Their group chat had been quiet except for Hoseok’s message about not keeping in contact any longer. Seokjin thinks it’s directed towards Yoongi but can’t help but feel it is meant for him too. Seokjin wonders what he did wrong and if he was really alone after all. The girl crosses the railroad tracks and drops her diary. Seokjin says it contained her wishlist, and one of the things was smeraldo flowers. She had written an excerpt from Erich Fromm’s The Art of Loving with a clipping of the smeraldo flower. Seokjin does as many things on her wishlist as he can, for a month. He ends up looking for smeraldo flowers and finding them at a small shop. The girl doesn’t know he has her diary, and though he tried to admit it to her a few times, he never could. He worried she would leave him like his friends did if she knew of his wrongdoings. He wanted to make her happy and felt like a better person when he did. He wants to get the smeraldo flowers because they mean “the truth untold.” He requests the smeraldo flowers by August 30 since there is a firework display that day. He plans to tell her that he loves her while giving her the flowers under the night sky. 

In the HER note, Seokjin stops his car abruptly and notices a flower shop. He goes to the shop, noting that he doesn’t expect much because he’s already been to other shops with no luck. The owner of this shop tells him they can do a delivery and asks why it has to be that flower. Seokjin says that it’s because he wants to make someone happy and to become a good person. 

August 25 | Namjoon (MOTS: 7)

Namjoon returns to the container to find it on fire, with Woochang inside. He covers Woochang in a wet blanket and tells him to run. Just as they’re about to escape, something falls in front of the door, blocking their exit.

August 29 | Taehyung (HYYH Book 1)

Taehyung says Hoseok suggested they all watch the fireworks together. They all agreed and said they missed him in their group chat. Hoseok said in a playful tone that they should have realized how important he was sooner. Seokjin agreed to come to the fireworks after his appointment, and Taehyung is reminded of a dream he had where a woman is killed in an accident while Seokjin watches. Taehyung’s dream ended with the fireworks, but he dismisses it. He realizes how the container is always lit now, as he sometimes walks to it when he can’t sleep or when he’s having problems with his father. He doesn’t go in because he doesn’t know what to say, but he realizes it’s a signal for them to come when they want. 

August 30 | Yoongi (HYYH Book 1), Seokjin (HYYH Book 1, note 1), Jungkook (HYYH Book 1), Seokjin (TEAR), Seokjin (HYYH Book 1, note 2), Seokjin (ANSWER)

Yoongi shows up at Namjoon’s container, noting he saw Taehyung walking as he rode the bus and Jimin standing outside the container. He assumes the others are coming. He says he completed the piece he showed Hoseok, making a few changes and titling it “Hope.” The title doesn’t match the contents, as Yoongi says it contains his fear, cowardice, and inferiority. It contains everything he tried to run away from. He says he can’t think of anything else to call it that would do it justice. 

Seokjin waits for his smeraldo delivery, which is late. The driver drops off the bouquet, and the girl hasn’t arrived yet. Seokjin realizes the card he asked for is missing, so he calls the driver who says he can make a U-turn and come right back. The girl appears across the street. 

Jungkook arrives early to the railroad tracks, where Namjoon’s container is located. He sees Jimin come up, followed by Yoongi and then Hoseok. He’s excited to meet them but notes that mixed feelings overtake his excitement, and he can’t stop thinking about the accident. It’ll be the first time they’ve seen each other in a while. The first fireworks explode in the night sky. 

In the TEAR note, Seokjin begins with some philosophical questions on the nature of knowing when love starts and humankind’s inability to recognize this. He wonders why he was given the ability to undo everything. He describes the car crash, as a car hit the girl and he stood there in shock, dropping the smeraldo flowers. He wondered “what if I could turn back time?”

In his second HYYH Book 1 note, Seokjin watches as the delivery truck, which had made a U-turn, hits the girl. He stands there and notices that he drops the smeraldo bouquet. He watches as the girl bleeds on the pavement as the first fireworks burst into the sky. He notes that he hears a mirror crack.  

In Seokjin’s ANSWER note, the girl looks at the diary that contains information about her favorite things and seems flustered. Seokjin notes that he wanted to make her happy and be a good person. He thought if he followed the words in the diary, it’d happen, but it didn’t turn out that way. He had concealed himself, but realized that his mistakes and failures are also a part of him. He must be honest in order to move forward. He gets up and the girl doesn’t stop him. He goes out onto the street and looks at his reflection in the window, which looks shabby. 

September 30 | Seokjin (HYYH Book 2)

Seokjin looks around the container village as he notes that Namjoon’s container is on fire. He sees people with black masks and hats and metal pipes. He sees someone bleeding from their head and a lot of general chaos at the scene, along with a boy running while crying. Seokjin watches the boy run to Namjoon’s container. Seokjin is coughing from the smoke, but he continues to run and realizes he recognizes the symbol on the black hats. He previously saw the mark at the redevelopment meetings, and he recalls the demolition date for the container village. Seokjin gets closer to Namjoon’s container and sees people trying to move an iron plate blocking the entrance. Namjoon is still inside, and Seokjin tries to help the others move the plate out of the way. They succeed in moving the plate, and Seokjin sees someone lying on the ground inside. Seokjin drags Namjoon out and tries to wake him up, but he appears to be dead. As Seokjin tries to wake him up, he notices how everything around him becomes faint, and he hears the shattering of a “window” far away.

The rest of the story takes place in YEARS 9 to 21. Click here to read that summary.